The Excorcism

The last 3 weeks or so have been very confronting and stimulating (pick your synonym).
Basicly i have lost been very sloppy on my accounting for the entire run of the HillAnt corp up to 2-3 days ago. As a result i lost track of about 700m of isk in assets i can't find anywhere any more. in corp assets? no. in deliveries? nay. Where did it go? It seems that when i went on a cleaning spree (cleaning up a lot of little things across that add up to a lot in the eve universe). I have looked through my transaction / journal / contract logs and every financial move i made since the start of the month is accounted for. That left me with the assets i had listed in my last financial report. From the looks of it i mindlesly trashed too much of it. I can't find the logs for it.
(I had decided to clean up because there was a huge and incomprehensible asset list i had built up doing almost everything imagineable that a low sp character can do)

It has been nagging and bothering me for the greater part of the month to do my accounting / auditing and for the last 2 days it has been bothering me that i lost track of almost a billion. I knew i could just buy 2 plexes to fix it but it didnt feel right to do it yesterday morning because i didn't know what happened. I am still not exactly sure what exactly happened.

This morning i felt i knew and learned enough to quickfix the result of my mistakes by coming up with the difference with 2 plexes. I thought of doing so yesterday but it didnt feel right until i had digged through my logs.

Because of the above i had been offline more in hiding afraid to look at the mess i had made.

HillAnt corp's asset list and excel sheet is now much cleaner and comprehensible to me. I have also upgraded my system which allows me to much more efficiently interact in the eve universe and to make quality fraps movies / screenshots when i choose to with ease.

Now that i feel i have this over with i move on to more with a much greater sense of freedom and confidence.

Other things have been going on that altough have a great impact on me, i am not sure i can explain in such detail which will result a comprehensive let alone understandable or culturally palatable set of words that will help everyone immerse themselves deep enough into kiddy pool part of my thinking processes.